take it or leave it

dalam hidup ni, demi seseorang, kita sanggup sacrifice banyak benda. almost everything. tapi adakah ia berbaloi? perlu ke nk berkorban segalanya? tapi kita sememangnya tak pernah sedar bnda ni. yg kita tahu nak jaga hati orang. tapi hati kita bagaimana? siapa yg perlu jaga? atau kita sndr je? persoalan ni dah lama bermain dalam fikiran aku. antara gf ngn bf. perlu ke pilih salah satu? atau pilih kedua2nya? bg aku, manusia yg penting dalam hidup ni ada 3. famlily, bff, boyfie. semua tu penting! tp kadangkala kita terpaksa pilih. sudah tentu family aku tk kn tinggalkan. aku bukan jenis yg mcm gadis2 kt luar tu yg lari ikut jantan. alhamdulillah aku tak lah smpai tahap macam tu. insya allah aku ingt family aku lg. hmm tapi aku perlu sgt support daripada family, gf ngn bf. sbb bg aku, untk someone tu aku dah byk kali berkorban rasa hati. sedih, kecewa, terasa hati, semua dah ada dalam diri ni. sentiasa fikirkan perasaan orang hingga perasaan sendiri aku ketepikan. bukanlah aku ni serorang yg baik, tapi cukuplah sekadar yg boleh dilabelkan sebagai bertolak ansur. tapi knp tak semua org ada sifat macam tu? taklah aku nk expect something yg bukan milik aku. itu perasaan orang. mana boleh kita paksa. kaum lelaki mmg kurang rasa peka, kurang rasa sensitif terhadap prmpn. itulah kelemahan lelaki. andai kata aku boleh putarkan masa kembali, akan aku betulkan, akan aku siapkan diri ini untk berhadapan dgn semua dugaan. tapi bodohlah kalau aku fikir benda yg tak mungkin akan jadi. different ppl different lifestyle. nilah kehidupan.. take it or leave it..

hell

abby, just be urself. proud of urself. abby, u're so good, u're what u're. abby, u're not sick. u're unhappy lately. abby, make ur life easier than the previous one.

wish me luck.

2011

hmm new year isnt it? i'm goin to be 19 this year, lol. ohh forgot! hello people :) Happy New Year! this month i got a lots of quizes, assignments and presentations. its annoyed me. actually ive been thinkin bout my life. nowdays its kinda harsh for me to handle any kinds of situations or problems. i always got pissed off to everyone. its like no manner in my life. what did happen to me actually? i cant be patient, i cant get long with my boy, my friends. its just not me! im not being myself lately. theres no one can understand me. for god sake, i really miss the old times. someone, please make me awake from this WTH situation. thanks.

End of 2nd semester

yeahh folks, dah nak habis sem 2 dah ni. there's a lot of things happen lately. college's, friends, housemates, family semua ada ah. firstly kt hostel tu macam2 story ada, semua pasal hantu. haishh seram dah nak stay kt hostel tu. planning dgn housemate yg lain macam nak move on je. tp tk sure lg, kadang2 dorang ni cakap mmg melayu sikit. haha. tu lah kan, hmm. sebab sape yg boleh nmpk tu dia ckp ah kt ampaian ada, kt bilik kiteorg pun ada. tp benda alah tu yg paling kuat kt bilik tengah. bilik kecik ngn nurul. hmm aku dgn ainun dah takut dah sebab ada satu night tu macam lain macam je. shasha pun dah macam berjinak2 nk join aku ni. lol. ntah lah tk tahu nk comment ape dah. nanti ah kiteorg discuss. so far ni takde ape lg nk share. pnjng sgt lah nanti. post lg esok ye. byee :)

Take it easy, Abby

it's too private to share it here. sorry yeahh. i'm not sure what i'm gonna tell you guys bout this. sh** maybe later okayy. bye then.

A girlfriend is a sister you choose

A girlfriend is the one person on this earth you feel whole with, the one you share who you you really are with..
A girlfriend knows where you're coming from and evrythng you're dreaming about. she is the one you tell anythng to, ask anythng of, and do anythng for. just spending a moment with her chases your cares away and puts a smile on your face. she understnds wht you hope for, wht you believe in, and wht you you are committed to. A girlfriend is a sister you choose.
all of my girls, they are alwys be my sister's and im proud of it. i love you girlfriends!

I'll be there for you..

If you've got secrets you want to tell, we can talk all day long. if your dreams get broken somehow, i'll remind you tht you belong. if you need someplace to hide, you can hold my hand for a while. if your sky begins to fall, i'll stay with you til u smile. whenever you need some space, there's my room you can take it. if someone breaks your heart, together we'll unbreak it. when you feel sad or empty inside, i'll show you you're not alone. if you get lost out there, i'll come and take you home. i'll go with you somewhere else, when you need to get away. and when nothing seems to be going right and you need a friend...i'll stay.


Abby Bie